Why does God allow dreams to die?
I asked Him that a few months ago and thought that I heard Him answer: Because I love you.
Years ago, I used to bring that dream out of my pocket every once in a while, dust it off and look at it, wonder if it would happen. “God, I thought you promised…”
Then I relegated it to the top shelf. I’d have to get a ladder to look at it. “Maybe I didn’t hear right. Maybe I misunderstood…”
Then that dream went into a storage box buried deep in the basement. “Boy, good thing that never happened…”
And then, this summer, after a torrential rain storm, we were cleaning out the flooded basement. Everything was wet and we had to pull out all the baby junk that we had stored away. The crib, the toys, the books, the dream. We had no use for it. It was just taking up room.
“Let’s just get rid of it all. We could have a yard sale and clean out this basement.” And I agreed. What a relief to get rid of it all. Plans were made. We would make some money and put it towards our vacation next year.
But a couple of weeks before the yard sale, my wife came to me and said, “I’m late.”
I thought: No, no, no. That’s ridiculous! That’s absurd! We’ve already done this before, and I know where it ends. I said, “I’m sure it’s nothing.”
But then a week before the yard sale, she came back and said, “You know if we sell all this stuff and shouldn’t have, we’re going to kick ourselves.”
”Take the test. Let’s clear things up before we do this yard sale.”
And so I was downstairs in the basement when she called my name, “Craig! Can you come here please?” It was the way she said it..kind of scared. My heart sank.
God lets dreams die, only to resurrect them again at the proper time. Because God is a God of Resurrection.
And so after turning 40 later this year, we will be celebrating a new birth day in our family next spring…
The birth of our third child.
God has a sense of humor…doesn’t He?
3 Comments
October 5, 2009 at 8:55 pm
Wow Craig! How exciting! Being a 40something parent of a newborn/toddler/preschool age child is not so bad, really.
Great news!!!! Congratulations to you your wife, and boys!
October 12, 2009 at 6:04 pm
Hey, thanks Shelly! It’s good to hear that other have navigated newborns during their 40’s.
It’s been so long…
But we’re looking forward to meeting the new family member!
October 14, 2009 at 3:53 am
It’s great! My congratulations!